::year of 2009::

Year of 2009..so0 many things had happened in my life so far.. sum r good n sum r bittersweet.. startin off with early of january 09', ive further my studies in Masters in Mass Communication and it takes abt 2 years to complete it...now im haf way thru..hopefully i can manage to finish it in this 2 years period...

in the earlier of 09, everything went smoothly and i relli grateful for that but on april 09, my family had received a relli bad news which is my mum had been suspected of breast cancer... i was in shocked n i never relli want to admit dat my mum was sick...i was in tear when my sister called me n told abt it...goshh...aku rasekn mcm dunia aku menjadi begitu gelap...i cried so hard cz i dun want to lose her....at that particular moment i juz want to be right there beside her...luckily i have a very big family and loving...all my auntys n uncles were there beside her n give her thier supports when she received the news.....relli appreciate it my dear auntys and uncles...thanks fo bein there fo her...i cant go back at dat particular time cz i have a midterm test the very nxt day of the news..gosHHh, only GOD knows how my feelins dat time....afta ive completed my test i went bak home n found out dat her sickness was in the early stage..i was soO relieved at dat time..but we dont know wat stage she had...we all pray fo her dat her stage was on the early stage...huhuhu

the next day we held a small kenduri doa selamat fo my mum had to undergo a surgery to remove dat mean lump...so i stayed fo almost 2 weeks plus at home...i was takin care after my mom in the hosp..me n my sis take turn..i was on nite duty..i had to stay up till 8am then my sis will take over until 6pm...that was my routine fo abt a week at the hosp...seriously i dun like hosp..i was soO scared to even tink to have a nite there...but when my mom sick i put aside all the feelins n i was there fo her thru all the time... i bathed my mom..suap her..take her to the toilet..i was soO sad but i hv to be strong fo her..my dad advise me to not cry in front of her cz it will let her down...so after a week she came bak home n i was soO hepi cz if she's home then she will not feel bored.. in the hosp i bring along my lappie n vcd's n youtube her fav drama by agnes monica..hihihi... then when she sleep i cannot even sleep at all i was on9 all way thru the nite...hukhuk

then when she's at home, her stitches below her underarm was bleedin heavily...my dad brought her to hosp n the doc had to do another stitches without any anaesthetic....huhuhu bad doc...haihhh then after dat everything went ok n i pray dat evrything goin to be ok like owez... after she had recovered healthily..she had to go fo her chemo fo 6 cycles to kill all the bad cells...but then the doc gave her penicilin which she was alergy to n tis had cause her loss her hair...huhuhu...then after chemo..went on to do her radiotherapy @ PPUM fo 15 times evry single day xcept fo weekends...thank god dat ive already finished my exams n holidae had juz started when she do her 1st radiotherapy...evrytink went well n then i found dat from my dad dat my mom was on her 2nd stage of early stage i breast cancer...huhuhu my heart then was very devastated...they had planned fo not tellin us....huhuhu i was soO shocked n cudnt accept it at first but then i realised dat tis is all fate... so now she had done all her treatment n now she can get well rest at home...huhu now all of us wants to make her hepi n not to worry abt a single thing... hehe

i love my family soO much...i cudnt tink of losing them... they are my strength to go thru this...thou it was soo hard fo me to accept it at 1st but i know its all fate n i redha dgn dugaan drNya... now when i have a semester break or weekends i juz want to spend my time wif them..my family...esp my mummy...i love my mum soO much....thanks ma cz lahirkn rena kt dunia ni dan bg ckup kasih sayang dr kecik smpe besau... love u...~